Got high on marijuana last night, reefers. It was great. I realized a lot has to do with the strain, and how it's grown. Weed isn't just...

Fantasy today. Distracted by the sound of high heels on wood floor, like a siren's call. Depressed today. Anxious today. Shame. When...

Been plagued by it lately, and always, can't seem to shake it. It's always about one person, my ex, sex with whom I can't stop thinking...

Still haven't fully recovered from the spiral I went into a few days ago. I haven't made the calls I'm supposed to make and I haven't...

Not long after I wrote that last post I smoked some weed and had a complete mental breakdown. I went into a shame spiral which I've been...

Got into a foul mood tonight which I really could see into: something about rigidity, and masturbation, not letting myself, not letting...

I recently reconnected with a woman from an old writing group. I used to have a crush on her. She reached out to me and asked me if I...

Did my routine last night: I've been taking ketamine troches for the last year and lately I've been dancing as it kicks in, then smoking...

Dostoevsky walks into a casino and plays roulette, hoping a win will solve his problems. Instead he's besieged by more. I go to the...

This blog has been percolating for some time, but it's only after the frustration of not doing it overwhelms the fear of doing it that I...