Yesterday I went to a friend's wedding via Zoom. He was in my home group but he moved away recently and we haven't been in touch, until...

I need to journal more about my experience with microdosing. I didn't journal at all this week. I didn't write at all this week. I wrote...

It's been about 3 weeks since my last post. I started a new job which is taking up a lot of time and energy, and I'm still dating. My...

Didn't get ghosted but she called it quits. That's not what I got triggered about but I wanted to let you know what happened. She said...

Turns out I wasn't ghosted. She messaged me three days later and apologized, said she got sick and busy. I told her sorry that happened...

Got on a dating app. Had a conversation with a woman where I probably shared too much, and she probably shared too much. We planned to...

I signed up for a dating app. To my surprise I felt relief. By signing up I was telling myself "I'm not perfect, but I'm good enough."...

Supposed to start work soon, a regular 8-5. I've never done that before and I'm freaking out about it. I'm supposed to go to lunch with a...

Respect comes in again when I'm at the gym and I see these lovely bodies and I think I can keep looking and it's no problem. And that...

Rambling rambling and just need to ramble. Last night I smoked too much, took a gamble, wound up with it all in shambles. This time I was...

Great insights into my freeze response, and more insights into my fear around making choices and perfectionism, feeling free, then...

Feeling stressed and overwhelmed lately. I'm waiting to hear about a job offer and I feel like I'm waiting to be assassinated. My whole...

Or at least nearby. I have good moments, almost like high highs, followed by bad and I don't know why. I can't keep myself stable. Friday...

In therapy today we did some more IFS, and I met this 19 year old part who doesn't like the exile much, and when asked if there was...

In this program I identify as a sexual anorexic, which means I deprive myself of love and sex, which may seem strange for a sex addict,...

Last night I was meditating and I kept drifting away, and I thought, "why don't I try to concentrate?" Before then it seemed like I can...

Strange feelings and little perspective today. Woke up beating myself up. Was supposed to hear back about a job but haven't. Was afraid...

I want to experience it all, the full gamut, the highs and lows, not just the highs, or just not the lows. It's all part of being human...

Just like the title says, still learning. Just behaved in a way like I used to, looking at my naked self in the mirror, wanting to send...

The thing I run from, the thing I'm afraid of. The thing I don't want anyone to see. Got to see it in therapy. Gotta turn and face the...